| at what point do we get too old for Live journal? |
[05 Sep 2006|09:59am] |
are we too old for live journal?
got work today, that stupid HR person still hasn't added me to the payroll. what the freak does payroll do anyway? how busy can you be? shit...it's been like...1 month+, i need to get paid!
mike has work today. his first day of work- good luck fucker *muah* i hope you do well and perhaps i'll see you for lunch? mike's new job is in long beach funnily enough right down the street at a private airplane company, so exciting=)
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| so bored! |
[29 Aug 2006|02:15pm] |
i'm so bored!
summer school is over and after that whole fiasco good thing. chem 153L isn't hard unless you forget to turn in your final paper worth like almost 50% of your lab reports to turnitin.com!! i couldn't believe it!!! my prof emailed me to tell me and then i get my grade and it's a B-!!!!!!!!!! OMG! So i'm freaking out and i go to collect my exams to see if i just effed up on the last ones, i didn't so i talk to the prof. i find out prof kim forgot to add in the 100 points+ into my grade, so now, TECHNICALLY, it's ok, he agreed to give me the A, how long does it take for a grade change to turn up on your ursa? it's been...two school days...i'll wait a week? i don't want to bother him because he was kind enough to accept my paper after having to tell me i forgot to turn it in and he was super nice so i don't want to be annoying but yeah i'm a freaking nutcase=( *praying*
after taking a diagnostic for the lsats on my own, i've decided to study sans lsat classes. that won't be the biggest mistake of my life right?
other than that, i have nothing going on. i'm reading romance novels. seeing the boy i reluctantly accept as my boyfriend. got a date with the man i wish was my boyfriend on thursday and a lunch date with my ex-boss.
so my new boss has yet to get me officially on the payroll and the payroll lady was like, "we need to work out the budget" that doesn't mean they don't have enough for me right? GRRR... i wish things could just get settled already and i won't have a THING on my mind until sept 25.
but i guess it's not so bad, i just have so much freaking time on my hands that i just think about things to worry about all day.
Baltimore, NYC, and DC were super fun. but that's just too much to talk about so if i care enough about you i'll tell you about it.
so: grade change, where is it?!, LSAT=170+ please *PRAYING* , new job=new money
but seriously, i have nothing impending to really worry about, just things to wait for and hope for.
hoping to go to palm springs with mike sometime before he starts working, he got a job! HURRAY-now he can afford my awful spending habits.
need: new boots: preferably tannish so i can wear it with both blacks and browns. i want to clean out my closet from all the clothes i don't wear anymore and just donate it. i wear like, three shirts.
reading this shit over, i realize, life is good right now. i hope it doesn't change *cross your fingers*.
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| this new layout for livejournal is really nice |
[12 Jul 2006|03:54pm] |
i have my lab practical at 5:30, i hope i do everything correctly and there's no bumps or mistakes! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!! praying!!!
friday is my sister's rehearsal dinner and i bought the cutest dress for it!!! i love it! it's cream with medium sized blue polka dots on it with a lace lining the top and bottom of an eitherwise empire cut top. it's hard to explain but i really like it. saturday is her big reception or whatever since she's already married and then sunday i have to study for my exam 3 for 153L. gosh, so much shit to do. on top of that, i have all this work to do for my boss! the one time i have a lot of shit to do my boss gives me a lot of work. sigh, must finish it by next friday. anyway...can't wait until summer school's over, then it's baltimore, new york, dc. and then relax.
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| summer |
[30 Jun 2006|12:50am] |
so summer is here and i've got 153L to do. yes, it never ends, my life is a neverending swarm of chemistry courses. LAST ONE!!! then MIMG until the day i die...
i finished the two labs due tomorrow and i'm too lazy to go over them. so, logging onto mando's myspace, i looked at that for the first time, not too interesting once you get tired of it.
i can't wait until this class is over because then i actually get to enjoy the rest of the summer and not take any more sessions. yay.
saw mando tonight, it was an alright encounter, not too fun...haha, j/k homie, always great to see you. peace out=)
mike's in new jersey right now. he called while i was out with my boyfriend mando so i didn't get to talk to him too long so i felt bad, so i went to lids to buy him this hat that costs as much as a freakin shirt i'd buy but alas, was talked out of it by the black guy who says i need "to be sure because it shrinks about 1/4 an inch since the cap is extremely fitted" thanks for the advice home boy
i've come to a point that i've started reevaluating my career path. do i REALLY want to go to law school? YES, for some reason, i am just drawn to that idea but now the question is where will i get in and where CAN i get in? patent law? litigation? what should i do? i have (or will have) a biology degree mind you so that might be some type of directory for my future plans but for now, i'm kind of in limbo.
mike graduated from san diego. i am so very proud of him. my electrical engineer=)
my boss is leaving ucla so i might not have a job next year. maybe that's for the best so i'll be encouraged to look for a more law-based job. something that can whet my appetite. we'll see, i seriously got so hooked up with this job it's not even funny, but, what to do.
this summer is HOT. i've resorted to wearing wife beaters and cut offs all day so ya'll planning to see me you better be prepared to see some bummy shit. lately i've been wanting to go shopping but either 1. i feel guilty about spending so much money and so i convince myself not to buy things or 2. there really isn't anything good this summer. or maybe it's because it's so freaking hot that looking at anything to wear turns me off. but either way, i've got the urge to spend and nothing to spend it on, which is probably how mike would have it.
i think i'll do some work for my boss so i can relax this weekend
see ya wouldn't wanna be ya
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[12 Jun 2006|05:49pm] |
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why doesn't anyone update anymore?!>:o
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| god this is taking forever |
[12 Jun 2006|05:46pm] |
it's seriously taking forever. please, 6:30 just come so it can be over sooner! saturday was the LS4 final, i think it went alright but i was just so happy when i finished it i didn't even look over it and left 15 mins. early and i'm kinda regretting that because now i'm thinking about the problems and i can't remember how i did them, i know i got at least 2 points off...pray pray pray for us all
14cl this day
153a wednesday, then i am DONE until the 26 in which i'll be taking summer school! GAH
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| damn damn damn |
[23 May 2006|06:13pm] |
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and this quarter started out so good
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| learn to be more responsible! |
[26 Apr 2006|01:07am] |
that'll be #1 on my things to do list.
so i haven't done the fafsa...darn me
my ls4 midterm was today, it was seriously SO EASY and i knew it was going to be easy so i studied like all of two seconds for it and messed up on the minor crap! grrr...i hope i can still pull out a good grade.
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| happy easter |
[16 Apr 2006|10:00pm] |
lots on my mind...
-today my mom calls me and was like, "aunt nieu is going out to dinner with her daughter and her daughter's husband tonigt, her duaghter is taking her out" and i was like, "what are you doing for dinner?" and she was like, "i don't know, i was going to ask aunt nieu what she was doing but she's going out with her daughter," and so i was like, "it's ok, i'll take you out" and my mom was like, "well let's see if other family peeps are down to go out and then we can all go out" and i was like, "and if they don't i'll take you out, i'm getting paid this week" and so my mom and i hang up and when she gets home she says the other people wanted to go out late and that wouldn't work fo rme because i needed to get back to la and so i told her just the two of us can go and we just sat there talking about where to eat and what to do and so i was like, "well, mommy, do you want to go or not?" and so basically she says she's too tired and we don't go and i just drive back to LA. and then my sister calls me and was like, "did you take mom otu" and I said, "i was going to but she said she didn't want to in the end" and then my sister's like, "aww, tha'ts wierd, because mom was really excited about it earlier. she called me and everything to tell me about it." and that just hurt my heart and it still does. i hope she didn't think i din't want to take her out because i really did, i just don't like indecision because i'm pretty indecisive and two indecisive people just lead to impatience on my part.
-so midterms are coming up and i'm laboring on whether or not to go to San Diego this weekend. most likely i'm going to go since i only have the LS4 midterm next tuesday and then next next monday/tuesday i have my 153 and CL midterms. i'm not too worried about LS4 yet because i can't imagine what he can test us on that isn't self explanatory. so, sand iego it is.
-over the past 4+ years in which i've been with mike, i think i've grown a lot and grown out of a lot of things. i just finished this book that was semi-entertaining bordering on UTTERLY ridiculous. it's entitled "how to meet cute boys" or some shit written by an Elle magazine editor. it's basically about this professional woman who although is relatively successful in all areas of her life, still suffers from insecurities brought on by her relationship with a younger man. it's funny because the character, Benjamina Franklin, was a journalist for the fictional Filly magazine (i think it's fictional, never heard of it) and relays her sadness in a list of "do's and don'ts" for dating. but it was funny because a lotof her don'ts i know i TOTALLY do and a lot of her dos seemed desperate and pretty much sad because the dos were so methodically planned any girl who actually goes by those dos has to be a loser because she puts so much time into doing the dos, if that makes sense. her'es an example: the word "LOVE" does it mean the guy isn't into you (this goes for that one freak who produced sex and the city) when the word "LOVE" is absent from his vocabulary? i don't think so. because it's certainly a difficult thing for mike to say (unless he's had a few drinks...but at that point he's also groping me in public) but the inability for him to say it on a routine basis doesn't mean he's incapable or doesn't feel it because as mike once said, "he knows how he feels" and verbalization is just one aspect of displaying those affections (not worded by mike, he's an engineer but it's basically what he meant) and you know what, with every moment i spend with mike i do find myself needing less and less affirmation because i too know how he feels by the way he's attentive to my needs and considerate to my feelings. so to the author of that horrid messaged yet entertaining nonetheless book the spoken words of affection need not be reciprocated all the time, however, the actions do and this complementary relationship can be the deciding factor of whether or not the guy is a "keeper" another thing, BE WARE of the guy who spouts words of love too soon, and you yourself be ware of your own spouts of love because more likely than not, it's about three YEARS too soon. because now that i think about it, when we had first said those words to each other, i don't know if i even really felt it or if it was something i thought was love at the time or just something i said to have something to say, but right now i can honestly say, i know how i feel.
-one thing that mike says changed about me since high school is my clothing style. these days when i go shopping, i seriously get SO TURNED OFF by anyone wearing abercrombie or hollister (granted i still wear my previous a&f/hco purchases because that shit still fits) because seriously, i do not want to be wearing the same shit some 4'8" little chit in 9th grade is wearing. so where to shop now that we're "adults"? #1: NORDSTROM, love that shit, go to BP or tbd (although tbd is more for jeans and the OCCASIONAL bomb ass top you want to wear to a nice event because lord knows i am not going to spend 100+ on a tank i'm only going to have few places to wear). #2: Nordstrom RACK/Loehmanns...these are the BEST places ever, trust me, you get all the basics for CHEAP, #3: when you can make it, get your ass to either Melrose or Pacific Beach in SD, their boutiques (granted some are pretty pricey so avoid those places) are off the HOOK.
#4: still go into A&F/HCO type places for the essentials (the occasional for sale tank tops, the one in the life time $20 cropped pants that originally sold for 80+, etc. but nothing that screams "LOOK, I PAID 80 DOLLARS FOR THIS SWEATER: ABERCROMBIE & FITCH!!!") or get your ass into A&F kids (but for god's sake don't buy anything that'll incriminate you as a "kids" shopper i.e. shirts that read "abercrombie" because then you're definitely a 21 year old wearing 11 year old's clothing)i might be sounding really superficial and materialistic right now but seriously girls AND boys, we're coming to that age where wearing the same thing a 9th grader is wearing just isn't right. i've actually been feeling this way since freshman year of college but my thoughts have come to fruition last weekend when i saw like 4 little girls (no older than 14) carrying all these victoria's secret bags and A&F bags (V.S. is all good because who else has those cute pink panties selling 4 for 20? but seeing that along with the filled to the seam A&F bags just made me want to VOMIT, when I was 13/14 i was still wearing undies from THAILAND...am I alone on this one? haha...
-another thing i've learned is intelligence is not the ability to get a B in ochem with minimal studying, intelligence is the ability to recognize that... say "good for you" and still study hard and get that A. i hate the feeling of, "damn, just 5 more points..." now whereas before i was like, "hurray, dont need to study hard for the final because i'm guaranteed at least a B" or "fuck, need to do well on the next fianl because i fucked up on the first"...i need to stop calculating things that way. look at me right now! i'm still gallavanting off to sd when midterms week is coming up but you know what? this will be my last quarter going to SD (mike is graduating, SO PROUD!) so it's ok...
-i wrote a lot, i'm lazy now.
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| ahhh |
[21 Mar 2006|01:33am] |
ahh. not as in "AHHHHH" but as in "ahhh, yes, kemo-sabi" a moment of enlightenment if you'll say. i've got my first final in 6.24.34 hours.minutes.seconds and i'm here at the panda express typing away at the computer. of course, what's a great final studying session without some web surfing.
so...tonight i've come to the crossroads that all of us must face sooner or later:
shall i sleep/shower/eat before my final or should i just stay up until 8 a.m. for the first one?
suffice it to say, i am not fucking ready. that's not with a capital fucking. i'm scared. there's so many little things that i need to brush up on, which i'll do after this update.
it's not much of an update, just an update about finals. i'm so boring. my stories are boring. nothing i do is interesting anymore:'( BOOHOOHOO...oh well...
that's it. good luck everybody on finals.
to my boyfriend:
good luck, see you soon, and please, don't worry, BE HAPPY, i'll give you my phonenumber when you're sad i'llmake you happy just call me.
=) bob marley...that fool is the shit.
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| filling the void |
[09 Mar 2006|10:55pm] |
i think lately i've been feeling very...empty? i don't know how to describe it. well, either way i've been buying a shit load of shit to fill the void. i think it's a little bit of being unhappy at ucla and wanting to move out of my apartment, missing my sisters who have moved to seattle/baltimore/down the street from me so i see that one almost every other day, and my boyfriend (who has basically become my best friend by default-default meaning i have no others in contention) who is in san diego and i see only on weekends. but yeah, i dont know. i've just spent a LOT of money the past month. and by a lot, i mean, like, thousands. ok, maybe not thousands but like, a little over as much. and that's just on myself for like, fun things, not like, necessary things like my wisdom teeth extraction or anything, if you take that shit into account then it's definitely thousands. dont get me wrong, i've also ben tucking some away for a rainy day but i think i've been doing more spending than tucking and i really need to stop. i think once i move out and i don't feel so tense all the time at my apartment i'll be able to stop buying things and feeling as if i need it. hey, i'm using HTML coding to bold my words, thank you CRP! haha. well, either way, school is super hard, i'll be lucky to scrape by with one A this quarter. oh i pray...anyway, for those of you who are super shopaholics like me, here's a fun list of things i've bought within the past few months:
-PSP for mikey but seriously, that shit is DA BOMB, i love playing that shit.
-New Fujifilm Z1 digital camera for myself in black, it's fucking FLY. i haven't received it in the mail yet tho (so knock on wood to make sure nothing happens to it) but yeah, i already love it.
-new burton snowboard and boots/bindings to go with it
-a SHITLOAD of clothes among my best buys was this weekend:
---earl jeans denim skirt that was originally $125 and i got it for SUPER DUPER good price
---buffalo vintage hoodie that's originally 78 but got it for a SUPER DUPER good price too
---BCBG heels that are fucking cute as hell
damn, so materialistic. truly. but like i said, filling the void
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| the magic of two ice blended mochas |
[13 Feb 2006|05:46am] |
i am so WIDE awake right now it's amazing. my eyes aren't even droopy although my head feels heavy. i can't go to sleep. i drank two ice blended mochas today, one from coffee bean and one from boba loca and damn, those have some kick to them becuase i cannot sleep! so, on the news, "eve of valentine's day" when did valentine's day have an "eve"? this is truly commercial holiday at its peak. i guess it's a fun day to express one's "love" for another. gag. speaking of gag, me and mike have been together for a really long time, so long, i think we've become a little desensitized to each other's feelings. in the beginning, mike was so attentive and considerate and careful with my feelings, now he just "tells it how it is" and although it is refreshing, if i wanted someone to bitch at me all the time i'd talk to my parents.
i have a midterm tomorrow. chemistry c160, the hardest fucking class ever in the history of mankind. bioinformatics and genomics. i am very scared. but there isn't a lot of material to really be tested on so maybe that's a good thing. or maybe that's just what i think.
on the news: more girls than boys in the united states are becoming "first time drug users" which encompasses smoking, drinking, and marijuana and they are more likely to become depressed. damn, sucks to be a teenage girl huh? in addition, your liklihood of getting meningitis quadruples when you kiss multiple partners. so all you whores out there, get your ass checked before you spread that shit, filthy little fuckers.
tomorrow i'm getting my chem and ls midterms back. i hope i did ok. i pray i did ok.
that's all.
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| And moving on... |
[09 Feb 2006|08:54pm] |
Literally, i need to move on OUT THE FUCK of my cousin's apartment.
two days ago i started a fire. no, not the "look at me i'm a boy scout" i started a fire kind of fire but a "oh my fucking lord there's a big ball of FIRE in the kitchen" seriously guys...this is not good. i am not in a good place right now. my cousin bitches at me like she's my mom. i need to move the fuck out. i want to move out at the end of this quarter but my sister says i need to wait until the end of the school year. but mark my words, this time next year, i'm going to be living in my own room, somewhere in palms near the blue bus hopefully, and all of this ugliness is behind me.
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| January 9, 2005 |
[09 Jan 2006|11:31pm] |
First day of school, fun times, missed first chemistry class but it's ok, ain't much to hardinger's first day right? hopefully, i'll find out when i talk to my friend ::cross fingers::
today i went out for coffee with my girlfriend and as we were buying coffee this guy comes up to me and is like: "do you want a haircut?" and i was like, "no...why? do i need one?" and i was seriously distraught that some local stranger would come up to me and tell me that i need a haircut. but alas, he explained he was a teacher at the vidal sassoon academy and wanted me to come in as a hair model or some shit and the cut would be free, so i was like, "well, yeah!" so he gave me his card and told me to call him whenever i wanted a haircut, so yeah, next hair cut is gonna be a FREE 3 hour+ one, better than paying 50+ for someone to fuck up your hair huh? now i can get my hair fucked up for free.
i'm going to get my xrays for my wisdom teeth tomorrow at 8 a.m. i know i know, REALLY late but i've been super busy and getting your wisdom teeth pulled out is a huge commitment, however, i think i need it done asap because my jaw is locking when i chew. not good.
today i did a major closet clean up and i entered this with the intentions of weeding out the old clothes to sell to buffalo exchange but i can't part ways with anything for some reason. so far i'm definitely selling a pair of ae jeans that i wore all but 5 times and these express jeans i bought the summer before college (with miss RAKHEE mirchandani, LUNCH BITCH, LUNCH) other than that, don't know what else...boo...
i need to start working on studying for LSATS. i also need to start doing some work for my boss, she offered me my job through summer so i need to be a good assistant!:) she's the best though, i love researching for her.
going to SD this weekend, can't wait!:) i haven't really had time to sit and relax with just me and mike so that'll be nice.
my sister is leaving for baltimore this thursday (most likely) she's starting at johns hopkins and i'm really proud of her.
for me...classes are classes...and i'm hoping that things will pick up soon.
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| finally...i have everything i want |
[23 Dec 2005|10:24pm] |
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there's nothing more i can ask for. i am truly blessed this season, using that term loosely since blessed always seems to have some type of christian connotation and i don't want anyone calling me hypocritical or going against my faith or anything but yeah, i feel very...filled:) very happy. i hope everyone is having a great holiday!
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| FEELING GOOD |
[17 Dec 2005|12:47am] |
so much to be happy about
finals are FINALLY over...woohoo! now the only thing to do is wait for the grades to come rolling in...please, be good to me...
turning 21...yes bitches, i'm gonna be 21...who's a jealous mother fucker?
lakers game on tuesday...fun...
christmas!
relaxing to the point of sedation...
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| so tired |
[15 Dec 2005|05:20pm] |
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i'm tired now. i've got my final in an hour and ten minutes...very scary, but at least it's going to ALL BE OVER (for the next 3 weeks) HURRAY!
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| can't wait |
[10 Dec 2005|12:37am] |
till it's this time next week! then i'll be done with finals! and then it'll be the start of the break! and already i can feel that it won't be long enough. this has been a pretty tough quarter and i'm very happy it's almost over. i won't jump the gun just yet though since i still have two finals next week. thank goodness i finished two this week=) chem on monday and ls on thursday. please, let it all go ok.
i need to start thinking about christmas gifts...what to buy??? *sigh*
tomorrow i will study study study for ochem, hopefully finish material from first midterm and really understand it and then sunday i'll take to study the final third of the class and material from the second midterm and then review right before the final...pray pray pray!
gosh, i'm so freakin a boring. booo! anywho...movies i want to see:
narnia
i guess it's movie i want to see. for now, i'll concentrate on trying to concentrate on studying...
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| round two |
[09 Nov 2005|03:30pm] |
i am ready.
this weekend is labor day! hurray! too bad i have midterms up the ass next week. i'll try to get some studying done though=) goiing to san diego this week. maybe take a detour to home for a few days. it is raining today and my poor socks are wet. man, thats so grosss. well, i don't know if they're wet, maybe my feet are just cold.
i am at work right now, digitalizing interviews. i had this whole plan about saving my paychecks and what not, i just deposited my last paycheck and i have exactly the same amount i had when i deposited my last paycheck! did i spend all of that so quickly in just two weeks??? man...oh well, i've got a boyfriend who's a good saver:)
*sigh* alright, work until 5, cook the mates dinner, and then study study study
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| where does the time fly |
[31 Oct 2005|02:47pm] |
seriously fuckers. where does the time go? i am updating from campus in between classes. i wish i wish i hadn't killed that fish.
my honors professor is real floopy. i have no idea what the class is about. like seriously. she's nuts. she looks nutty also. she talks about the most random shit, and we have a group presentation due monday in which i have no idea what to talk about. *sigh*
this week:
Tuesday: LS 2:lab write up, Sci. Am. worksheet, quiz on lab #3
Wednesday: Clinic with my boss from 10-12, then work from 12-?
Thursday: Post lab week 1 and week 2 due, pre lab due, MIDTERM CHEM 14BL
ochem, you hit me...next time: study harder. it's so easy! let that ease translate onto your paper...
time for class, then finish up the labs, study for quiz, finish post lab(s) start to study for 14BL. no halloween fun for me=(
what i am looking forward to:
-getting paid on wednesday. getting paid next next wednesday so I can buy my citizens. i have decided to save 2/3 of my checks from now on. so since i've already spent 50 this weekend...i must wait for two more paychecks before i can buy my jeans. i will not buy anything else, because that will only delay my purchase.
-nothing else. life is one big homework assignment.
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